July 7, 2021
Today, I’m grateful for: Status quo
The long weekend gave way to a short week, which means Friday feels a litttttttle bit nearer than usual. There’s just so much gratitude in waking up each day under the general “status quo”. The sigh of relief I take as I peel one more ring off my little paper chain is so gratifying.
There is still newness in each day, however. I wake up every single day with a body that is different from the one I went to bed with. And I’ve started to notice changes in my body that I’ve never experienced before. I can feel my body getting weaker and weaker….my leg muscles getting softer and softer….my slow weebles to the bathroom getting a bit more wobbly.
As someone who has been active my entire life, the sense of softness in my body is unsettling. And this has triggered new fears in terms of what this will mean for my recovery. But despite these fears, I am determined to be well again. I am determined to be strong again. And regardless of however challenging that recovery may be, I have a feeling I will be ready to skip my way out of the hospital after our baby arrives safely earthside (no matter how impossible that may seem).
Today, I’m grateful for another boring day. The status quo. And the exercises in patience and gratitude that continue to groom me for what’s to come.
XO
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