One day at a time

May 12, 2021

Reflection: One day at a time.

Today, I’m grateful for: Just another day.

Challenge: Be present.

Have you ever been skydiving? I’ve gone twice and I always used to say “you’re never living in the moment more than when you’re free falling through the sky at 120 mph!” While this is true, it is quite temporary. This very intense, power-of-now experience is fleeting. But over the past several weeks, I’ve experienced this same type of “living in the moment”, but in a much more thoughtful, intentional, slow-release kind of way. Anyone can jump out of a plane, but it takes some real conscious discipline to wake up every day and choose “now” in each moment.

I don’t get it right all the time. In fact, I’m yet to have a single day that I can say I’ve truly lived in the moment from sun up to sun down. But I am taking it one day at a time. That is my motto these days. I don’t know what the future holds. Heck, I don’t really know what tomorrow holds, but that is OK. That doesn’t mean it’s comfortableby any means, BUT, right now, in this moment, I am OK. And that makes today a good day.

Each day is a milestone on this journey toward safely meeting our sweet baby girl. I’m grateful for each and every day that things are just OK,

Nothing exciting. Nothing to report. Just another boring old day. For me, that is success.

I still often find myself falling into the trap of anticipating outcomes, fears of the unknown, or fears of the potential. But something I’ve learned in the last several weeks is that no amount of worry or attempted “problem-solving” will change the circumstances. And it certainly won’t make me feel any better either. I just end up right back where I started, but emotionally exhausted and anxious.

Call it destiny. Call it a lesson. Call it bad luck. Whatever the reasons I’m finding myself in these circumstances are intentional. I am exactly where the universe intends for me to be. And so I am trying (really hard) to let go. To accept, with open arms, whatever it is this lesson is for me, wherever it is this path will lead me, and whatever stops along the journey that are meant to be a part of the process.

Today, I’m grateful for just another good-for-something, boring old, uneventful day.

XO

SS