Home sweet home

May 30, 2021

Today, I’m grateful for: Home sweet home

The excitement I felt this morning when I heard the doctor say, “We’re going to let you go home today” was significant. But I’ve never felt so equally relieved and afraid to be in the comfort of my own home. Being in the hospital meant safety for me and my baby. Reassurance that at any moment, if something were to go wrong, I was in the best place I could be. But being at home means I get to be reunited with my sweet baby boy. To hear Calvin giggle as he runs through the house. To rest in my own bed. To eat my own food. To simply feel the comforts of being “home sweet home”.

As I anticipate what the future looks like, it is hard not to spiral into the overwhelming series of “what if’s”.....there are just SO MANY. But I’ve never been so forced to live in the present moment than I am now. Each second, each passing moment is a milestone. Each day this sweet child remains safely, growing in my body is another day closer to ensuring I bring her safely from her world to earth side into my arms. And for that, I am grateful.

The next several days will be a new challenge as we work to configure a new “normal”. How to manage a household, a toddler, a Great Dane and preparing for a newborn, all at the same time, while remaining on some glorified version of bedrest. This has been hard. And it will continue to be hard. But as we embark on a new chapter of this journey, I find gratitude in each day.

XO

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